I guess I've reacted impulsively and I sounded too harsh just now. I'm sorry.

I voiced out because I felt that when there's enough staffs, we were told to clear half of our AL by June. But when we're short handed, our leave are all being blocked, why? I understand that we're short handed but you as our bosses should understand that is very tiring to work like robot everyday like this. We're not asking for one stretch of 3 or 5days leave eh? Annual leave is our entitlement and in my point of view is not right to block our leave because we're short handed. The management 've got to do something. Just like May is on no pay leave, and only 'd be back around June or July. Then temp contract staff should be employed. Yes right now we've, but again boms are being sarcastic towards her. Whats the problem with her? Why I've got a very, extremely strong feeling that you people are always picking on others and condemning them? And forced people to leave without giving people a reason why they were told to leave. It happens to my friends, I just wanna know why, why they were being treated this way?

I've told myself umpteen times that sometimes certain thing is good not to know too much. But where's the justification? Why boms from BOA are all of a same kind? Why they judge people by word of mouth? I'm disappointed.

Another thing that I noticed is that there's no communication between officers and us. I really miss those days at OC and NAC. Where we work as one united team.

I felt extremely bad after voicing up for them, because it seems to become an issue. Was being called to see Doris and the very first question came out from her mouth was: "JL, I see you're the least problem but why... .. . were you nominated to voice out for them?" Looks, when there's a miscommunication there definitely will be a misunderstanding. I admit my attitude wasn't good. I'm really sorry to have think that by voicing will helps to sort things clearly and I really do hope we could 've a stronger bond with officers. I don't like officers to practice favouritism whatever issue they've with that particular person, I do hope they'll sort things out rather than showing faces to each other. I really felt fortunate to be doted by all officers. But m neutral, m not siding my colleague neither m I siding the officers. I just hope we'll be able to communicate well.

Doris do see our points and I could tell that she's trying to help us and I really appreciated that. What she suggested (meeting weekly) is what all I wanted. I suggested it to be hold in the morning but the rest wanted to be at the end of the day. Family time, I'd appreciate if most of the time they'd choose to come an hour late rather than leaving office an hour early. But they always prefer the other way round of my preferences. But m fine with it, m fine with all. Besides, I've never been punctual for work at ORQ. M always 5mins late.

Anyway, m looking forward for a happier working environment.

I wanna a tattoo at my left wrist and a facial piercing. If we are good, these two wishes listed on my wish list would be fulfilled. Even I don't mind going to the tattoo shop alone, I'd prefer you're there to choose the design for me. N before I was a frontliner, I've always want a facial piercing but now I doubt I'll get that done for free... because it was done by you.

I'm too tensed up. N I'm sorry to 've said all that. I know you care, but 'd appreciate if you'd leave me alone for the time being.

Tired, extremely worn out. Gonna give my favourite tv show a miss. Gonna tuck in early. N be branch at 830 to do my reports.